FAKING IT

I have a small confession to make: i cry every time i break up, or the "thing" or relationship with a boy ends. Weather it's my decision or not, doesn't matter. Thing is, every time i cry, i DECIDE to cry. So there are never spontaneous. Why? Not too sure. I think it's a way for me to make them feel good one last time. Because i was always the one breaking up, i guess it was a way to kiss their ego one last time.